ღ Name your poison

Wednesday, December 17, 2008 @ 12:31 pm

Its a love story, Baby just say yes.

hohum. i just love this pic cos i love my white shades :D

ok, this gonna be an emo post : caution caution.

though i dont feel emo now, but i'll be better if i can let it out.

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i thought its gonna work out fine, but this Trust thing really irks me a lot. i once didnt trusted someone and now its YOUR turn not to trust me? and who said i didnt trust you? omg big misunderstanding.

~~i didnt regret my decision though. and if you have alrdy read my letter, i dunno, i really dunno~~

im confused. I AM. but if you want a yes or no, as stated, yes. right now, you might not want to hear me explain anything. but you can ask Jessie, ask her the turmoil of mixed feelings she had, im sure she can feel what im feeling right now.

~~Who can you blame? Blame it on fate? Why must you only appear a few years later?~~

Y'know, some feelings are hard to erase, might stay with you your whole life, i think mine hibernated for so many years, & it all came back to me, once again, and drive me into a super confused and crazy state of mind.

And of course, she meant well. afterall, shes still the woman who cared for you the most, who carried you 9 months in her, i dont blame her for the conversation, in fact im grateful that she enlightened me. Really.

~~Sorry if you think im cruel , its hard for me to say it, but i think i need to face up to my own feelings, i cant just let it go, im so sorry and i repeated that for nuts in the letter.~~

~~i might really lose it when i let go, but at least, clinging on is so unfair and i want to give~~

myself a chance to pursue smth i've wanted now and then. i may get it, i may not. but im willing to try. i may end up getting a heartbreak,but so? im still young, i guess when im old, i wont have the passion for all these.

~~im not unfaithful, im truthful to every sentence i made. i think both of us need the time to~~

~~think through. window periods wld be just nice (: thats all i wanna say. im quite sure you'll be reading this. tag me :D~~

this thing turned me all emo and troubled. and i dont dare to cry in front of my mum -_-" feeling pathetic again...):):):

alright anws, my hols are going by so soon. 1 more wk + and im a piece of dead meat. y'know 2009? zzzzzzzzz.............NO!!!!!!!!

nth done! great. ok.

-whacks myself-

so stop thinking too much and finish work, THERES STILL SUPP PAPERS. omg how evil can those ppl get, make us take supps instead of eoys -.-

xoxo

C-allied

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