RED LIGHT IN MY LIFE: I feel like im starting to find my lifetime crisis again. Probably im pms-ing all along last week. but the past week was filled with frustration, bitter which practically covered up all the laughters during lecture and during cca's rehearsal. Those moments when i literarily laughed my ass out of where it shld be. They are just not enough to fill up the foul, injustice and bitter-sweet hours...

Firstly, I appreciate so much for what you've done for our projects! Omfffggg, now the deadline are all here. And you carried everything on your shoulders, now you're burying your smart-aleck head in the sand, everything you said is just a lie to show people how kan-chiong u can be. i call this sucker attitude and you're a BIG TIME SUCKER really :X and now u lightly transferred all the burden to my shoulders, double burden NOW! puhleaseee, i need smth valid out of your mouth full of excuses.

Thanks for ruining my wkend. Thanks for the delay in everything. Thanks for running away as fast as an ostrich. Thanks for walking away straight after the business without even clearing the area. Thanks, and hope one day you'll drop all your teeth, so that u wont have more excuses. Or since u love to hide yourself so much, hope u meet with some quicksand and sink into it, AND PLS DONT COME BACK ANYMORE TO CAUSE US TROUBLE?!

Secondly, tgif, god bless. If not i'll never get a rest, and wont be able t0 face the crisis im constantly made to face without even a darnit break. Im not talking about schwork crisis, but also other insignificant crisis which somme people obviously wont feel a damn about the problem. But my emotions cant control it, so i feel so bitter and frustrated about it. Damn you, hope u wont notice i hated you to core now for allowing me to breakdown from my emotional boundaries. THANKS TO YOU too for dawning upon me that mah heart's not that dead yet, but at the same time, cause sososo many disappointments which i ended up feeling so sour about it. You wont see the tears i cried silently, 'cos i wont let you forever. Who are you to even to know? You didnt care and you dont appear to care. Neither should i even bother.

On the last note, i just wanna say i never ever gave up. Neither would i GIVE UP now, if i ever gave up now, i'll be going against my heart and never get to untie the knot which appears to be a dead one now. Argh, seriously i dont noe what you wanna do for the following days, but i dont care, im going to rebel you until your heart is dead. I WANT TO BE THE WINNER, OTHERS, pls fcuk up and shift aside. I dont need you to make me feel crap. I said so many times that i'll put my heart into action but apparently, i didnt had the courage at all. Tmrw morning im gonna wake up to feel motivated! YAY

Thirdly, seriously all the social stress are getting on my nerve. Why do i feel like i cant go on without it? Seriously, the feeling is bad for someone who thinks it matters to them a lot. I'm the kinda soul but mine was probably failing everytime. Sigh. And im dreaded, totally confused and hated the sensitive issue now. so XXX, puhleasee keep your asshole pie closed.

I'm on crisis, the strong feeling came back all over again...really, im tired and bitter and dreaded of having to settle and resolve and feel damn hurt about all these. God, you're so hard on me.

Lastly, stress comes in all area. Schwork, my mom-.- etc. which is really like wtf?! i almost cant take the time to blog ): my cca lx stuffs is driving me nutzz. i bet monday we might drive jasmine nutzzx too :D anws, cya vivian, zhuoya and jasmine at KAP :)

And i've chem sia, chinese compo, and ames, math ws and other assfg1345 stuffs to complete. thankyouverymuch. You're the cause of my mental disorder.

Ok, gonna hand over the com to daddy! :D woohoo :}

i shall go watch some teevee to enjoy myself for the night!